As she entered the room after tucking the children in, she asked her husband how his day was as she usually did. He threw her a nonchalant “it was good” and she immediately felt a sense of panic travel up her spine and wrap her body like a cloak. Her husband was usually very talkative so she immediately knew that something was wrong.
“What’s wrong, honey” she asked reaching out to touch his hand.
He snatched it out of her reach and with eyes so empty responded “nothing”
After pleading and begging him to come out with what was wrong he finally did and her world rocked, tilted, turned then shattered.
“I’m not happy anymore, for the longest I felt like this marriage was a mistake”
She searched his eyes and found absolutely no trace of the man she once knew and fell in love with. What had she done wrong? Who was this cold man before her? What was she going to do? She’d given him ten years of her life, sacrificed so much to keep him and their family afloat and this was what she deserved in return?
She fell to her knees gasping for air, feeling as if the wind was sucked out of her. “Baby, please tell me what I can do to fix this; to make you happy”
“There’s nothing you can do, I haven’t been happy for a while”
He said all of this with too much ease, as if her pain had no effect on him.
Suddenly a quote she’d heard in a movie some years ago materialized in her mind, “A man never abandons ship unless he knows he has a lifeboat waiting for him nearby”
“Is there someone else?” she asked weakly, knowing the truth before he confirmed it by looking off to his right.
She stood on her knees shaking violently, tears gushing out of her eyes, “what am I supposed to do now?”